I don't post in my blog that often because I write for other people. What I mean by that is I write things I think people will find interesting...and my life's not that interesting.

But I've decided today that I will keep this blog for myself. A lot of thoughts float through my brain throughout the day (thanks to the stimulation of NPR), and I used to reserve those for facebook status updates. But I'm much too deep to limit my thoughts to the confines of a facebook status.

Today, I'm going to write about the new movie An Education. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1174732/

I didn't watch the movie, and probably won't. But it's about a girl who is in her last year of high school (so I'm assuming 17) and her friendship-turned-romance with a man twice her age. And I kid you not, their names are Jenny and David.

As I told my friend Lilian, I don't want to watch this movie because I've lived this movie. And I don't like to be reminded of my past mistakes, because honestly, I find them disgusting. I made so many mistakes while growing up. Not only were there decisions I wish I hadn't made, but I was a person I wish I wasn't. Of course, my unhappy past has shaped who I am today, and to be completely frank, I really like how I turned out. The point is I'm embarrassed to tell you that I started meeting guys off the internet at 12 and only became monogamous this past year. But I should only be embarrassed if I were still that person. And I'm so not. I was a teenager (and pre-teenager) with low self-esteem who sought validation from boys...and men.